So much to say.

Ah. just look at my title.
i really have a lot of things to say
a lot of things to release.
anyways, i read some archives and was kinda laughing my ass out.
haha! memories. everywhere. :)
tmr's FRIDAY! time flies.

today's SS mock was retarded.
haha. idk how to do (c).
like ?!?!?!?! and its so freaking hot in the stupid hall >:O
halfway thru, heard band members doing their sectional
and i heard Nicholas Lee TSK-ING. i was like wtf. -.-
altho it wasn't perfect music, he dont have to be like that right!!!
ok. shan't bother about him
shall START on my FNN now
yes. im so great.
tmr's the deadline and im gonna be DEAD
cuz im having flu NOWWWWW!!

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maybe sometimes, you ought to stand in my shoes and think
because different shoes carries different thoughts and feelings
what you feel might not be what i felt.
and while on the process of considering your own feelings
did you ever consider mine?
considering my feelings when you've released all your thoughts and emotions
was difficult. because what you had wanted to say had already been expressed.
there is no way to rectify any mistake while you're releasing. its the same as me being unable to rectify the wrongs and mistakes i have done. because it had already happened. doing anything more or less will only make things worse and will not make it good.
perhaps you did consider my feelings. maybe too much. that you just cannot tolerate me anymore and decided to just say it once and for all.
don't you realize that it was always like this?
you always accumulate your anger, feelings and emotions till one day you finally decided that "no, i have had enough" and you just released, all the bad emotions that have accumulated over time.
our friendship is always on and off, on and off.
just like the lights or electrical appliances.

it will hardly spoil.
but frequently switching it on and off will only wear the light bulb out
and soon, the filament will get burnt (?) and everything will be lost.
of course. i would not want that ending to happen in real life
therefore i treated this crisis very seriously as this is our last year in sec school and if we were to burn this friendship out, it would be very wasted for both me and you. because i am very sure to say that i really dont want to lose you, the friend that i have made for like 3plus years? and my best friend.

maybe this post sounded harsh and straightforward
but i really just want to express out what i have felt
because although i understand about how you're feeling
you cannot eradicate the fact that i also have my own thoughts and emotions about this. i just hoped that everything will be back to normal.
[there is no way we can start from the basic as the process of falling from the top was torturous and we can only continue from where we fell.] - i know it makes no sense but what i'm trying to mean is that,
its impossible to start from the basic..
get well soon :)
luv.