My. Mood. Is. Bad.

Wanted to blog like 1 hour ago. but the damn browser kept hanging!>:O
used IE like twice and hanged if not lagged damn badly.
used GGchrome. damn it, even worse -.-

yea, and today's not a good day.
not everything is going on well.
had 2.4km rerun in the morning during PE. damn exhausted. ))))):
after maths, was english.... then recess.
during recess, i was desperately trying to convince Kiathao to go the genting thingy
but he still refused. @#$%^&* first time i fail to change people's mind. haha.
after that was chinese.... had listening compre & we finished watching PONYO.
like finally. but the ending was lame. lol

then was POA. had testttttttt. sian.
last min revised. hope i pass! :)
then was LCE.
watched Blood Diamond in class. Mr Lee like force people watch one lor.
lol. but anw the movie was damn violent. and i got frightened once.
when the guy stole the diamond then the leader/head killed him. LOL
was told that this is a real life story.
omg, cant believe the people there are so violent and cruel. tsk.

after school went str8 home...
skipped SS. haha. but once i reached home, my mood became worse.
lolll. had my nap and woke up ard 7plus and had dinner at 8
and watched paris & milan. i cant believe there are actually people smoking in the MRT!!
like so kuazhang. but cant believe that one guy actually rebutted others when they told him not to smoke in the MRT. wtfffffff so f inconsiderate!!!
i think Singapore should just ban ciggarettes totally. it just sucks.
and now im procrastinating again! i wanted to do FNN but i got so turned off by my computer that my motivation wore offffff. ):

the talk that Mrs Tan had was motivating. i was motivated. but because some things happened.
my motivation wavered. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
k. and im supposed to do FNN but im too lazy. i shall do it tmr.
hope i can finish & not be late for POA if not Mr Lee's face gonna be blackblack. haha!

and tmr after POA gg get my contacts
after that meeting my sissy go bugis!
sat going study! yayyyyyyy im so happy now.
ok no. im kidding. lol.
k gtg sleep already. byeeeeeeeeee.
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i did not expect the outburst from you this morning.
i was shocked. but i can understand because its your own personal problems.
its okay if you dont wanna share. its wrong for me to probe so much.
we didnt talk much at all, throughout the day. i wonder why?
maybe because i didn't make the first move? prolly.
the reply that you gave me took me offguard.
i wasn't prepared for the sudden reaction? idk how to describe.
but i can assure you that i definitely wasnt trying to instruct you.
i know you're stressed. with your work and everything. i understand.
but its like, you can share with me to release your burden and your load.
i will listen and understand.
the reason why i asked you was because i was concerned.
not concerned that i was the focus but was concerned about you.
i know whats happening to you so i want to know about your latest situation? if you put it this way.

so maybe like what "welcome" has said. i prolly stepped over the borderline of friendship?
but you know, i have been like this ever since you know me. and i dont think that being overly concern was a problem. maybe it wasnt. but now it is.
whatever it is, you just have to say.
say you dont want me to know. tell me dont ask so much.
say that you will tell me if you really want to.
but please, dont raise your voice at me. (maybe to you, you dont realise. many people are like that). i dont like people raising their voice at me. because it makes me seem like i am in the wrong. i wasnt wrong. was i? i was just being concerned.
well, the only thing i could do now is wait.
because your mood changes fast and i cannot predict what you're thinking next.
maybe you're having your pms thats why you become hot-tempered easily.
i dont know whats wrong with you.
but i definitely know that our friendship will not end, will not drift and will not be gone.

this kind of problem, we faced it many times and we always managed to overcome it.
now the decision is just up to you. i have done my best(i think?) and idk what you want.
maybe you need to think through? i know you dont need an apology cuz you always h8 me for apologizing. haha.
but i'll give you time.
we'll definitely go through this.
luvyou. xoxo.
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sometimes, i kinda missed the times we had.
the times before we separated.
the fun times perhaps?
i missed talking to you both. i missed everything we did.
haha. maybe not alot. but it was certainly memorable i guess?
but anyway, i think my greatest regret in life was losing the two of you.
really.
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