Imperfection

Friggin' pissed off by my brother.
some stupidity have gone over him and hes behaving like some retard
got $17 for the class photos, yet he reluctantly take the money from my father.
had to argue with him and logic things properly before his stupid brain can accept it.
being an impatient person, he naturally pissed me off, so badly. at a freakin' wrong time.
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okay, things were okay today
except that i was SUPER TIRED and i feel so sick during bio asp!
got the feeling that im going to faint anytime, and im heating up.
today's a science day for me.
bio asp, chem asp, bio extra lesson.
ytd was maths asp, maths extra lesson
both till 6.30pm!!!
there's chi oral tmr!!
okay and ive yet completed my F&N development.
k i know im very fast.
ah. homeworks are piling up,
ive made it a point not to procrastinate, yet i cant!
reached home at around 645? then blablabla
ordered Macs for dinns, cos my father was gna be late.

his treat anw, suggested by me!!! (p/s: we're not okay yet!)
ok then i watched tv till 11pm then now im reading CLEO
damn it!! i havent even done any work!
i told myself that i was supposed to complete:

ENGLISH
F&N
SS!!

and I WAS LATE FOR 6 TIMES ALREADY, IN A SEMESTER.
and MRS ANG talked to me, or rather scolded me. lolllll
so disgraceful, i mean, i felt so disgraced. LOL
so i MUST NOT BE LATE ANYMORE!!!!
ok, even to the expense of not doing my work, i shall NOT BE LATEEEEE!


and im kinda looking forward friday, saturday!!!!
because friday going out with Jianying(L) and saturday going for a movie marathon!!
with Mr Haruru. hahahaha
sunday's having tuition and watching movie also. LOL
okay so everyday's SO PACKED.....
kthxbai!




i reminiscence about the times we were together,
the happy times, the sad times, the angry times, the embarassing times.
yet we strive through it all, no matter what happened.
gossips, rumours, backstabs, none of these happened to me while you were still around.
as much as i want you back, i couldnt bear to hold you back.
i have to set you free like a bird, whos trapped in a cage, in which im a cage whos barring you from other birds' visits.
i think a lot, when im alone, when im with friends or whoever.
i think, what are you doing now? i felt so much, wanted to message you and tell you the latest gossips i found out, i wanted so much to tell you about my latest news, all about me.
i wanted to tell you how much i cherished and treasured this friendship as much as though it was a vein in my heart.
when its broken, all the blood gushes out, till no more blood, and the heart is dead.
that is how powerful that friendship was.
as much as sometimes when i disagree with what you've said, i tried my best to figure out that you're right somehow or rather.
although i hate it when you sometimes dont take my opinion for real or think that you're always right, but that is you. that is your character. i wont and cannot do anything to change it. or rather, we have to compromise, to reach to mutual agreement so that we wont break out into quarrels.

looking back at our old photos
the set of photos which we imitate other peoples' trademark pose, as well as our own's.
it was so fun back then. we were all so innocent and noobish.
lol. and i still remembered, while you still had your BANGS days.
and we often went on studying trips together, laughing like nobody's business,
taking retarded photos as if no one existed.
everytime we went, we kept seeing a certain group of people.
soon, as i had predicted. we met Daniel and he became our friend.
i still remembered, the most recent one.
was that we celebrated our first(?) christmas together.
and we met christopher, marcus they all. hahaha
so much fun. *winks

then was my birthday celebration
was touched, happy, speechless.
then was my actual day, the presents i've got was unexpected..
finally, my belated bday celebration.
the war broke out, i shouldnt have done that.
i should have just waited and not say anything
i should contain more patience in me.
i regretted, how that day ended.
how i've treated the both of you.
however these paragraphs although only contain memories of only one,
i want the both of you back, into my life.
fill it with happiness, not emptiness
fill it with joy, not sorrows.
fill it with love, not hate, dislike, detest.
xoxo