SICK

went to the Docs' today and she said i've got flu, cough and throat infection. >:
i was kinda shocked that she said i have throat infection. haha
it didnt feels like a throat infection thou! anywayz, its like 2plusAM now and im taking the opportunity to use comp cuz i aint going sch tmr. have a 2-day MC.
kinda good i guess? i hate those useless mocks and all that doesnt gives you marks.
like the SS mock the other time, theres no marks and you dont even know where you stand.
waste of time and resources, seriously...........

so yep tmr im gonna study @ home
HOPE that the weather's not too hot, if not i'll be tooooooo lazy to study!

and hmm i need to talk to someone! im not feeling good
haha my brain is abt to burst because its overflowing with feelings
ahhhhhhh where's my JiaYouzhan? haha, i suddenly thought of Jia Di Jia You Zhan.
random eh. haha i know:)

anws ya, just a short post
am very guilty cuz i spent hrs on the lappy alr
but its lagging like hell, idkwhy and i was pretty irritated by it too.
>.<

* why am i affected?

ELF!!

YAY. ordered couple of ELF stuffs just now.
damn, using the netbook made me panic like hell.
cuz 1159 is the deadline -.-
and i just sent my order @ 1145pm
lolllllllllllll

and now im all sweaty and sticky.
is today a hot day ? or was my house a humid place?
gawd. i did NO maths today>:
mm and theres ASP tmr, theres test too
soooooooo, im gonna go shower now and do MATHS
burning midnight oil today!
anyone wanna join? haha

k im still very happy ^^
really happy ^^
but abit sad cuz have to do maths
>.>

& kinda....
felt like doing something.
teehee

ciaos

RANDOM.

ok, something random:
i've been seeing people who are fakes these days..........
and its kinda irritating
why must people be so f-a-k-e?
gosh.

maybe i should say they are hypocritical?
whatever. but i get really effed uppppppp>:
fakes. fakes. fakes.
facade.facade.facade.

why do people act so fakely?
like, its not you. if you have to act like someone else.
FOR eg.

A hates bananas
but because of B, he have to be 'i-love-bananas'

smth like that. geddit?
i dont understand why people have to change their personality after they are with different people. lolllllllllllll
like split personalities. HAHA

and lastly, i hate COWS WHO BRAG.
teehee. something rannnnnnnnnnndom:)
i h8 friends who lie
lie abt their status
abt anything and everything

like seriously, whats the point?
-_________________________________________-

this is longgggggggggg post
hope you people read it!
xoxox

I was experiencing this before today:)

LOL:) kinda random. but i just felt like posting this up ^^

What is PMS or Premenstrual Syndrome?
This is a condition that happens about two weeks before the start of your menses – unlike dysmenorrhea which happens during the start of your menses. PMS is more common in healthy, adult women. Days before their menses, women with PMS may experience the following:

* Mood swings. You may be more irritable than usual. The traffic can get on your nerves and the heat can make you snap. Little things can make you cry too.
* You need some time alone. Days before your menses, you may just want to have your own space. You may feel comfortable just staying inside your room for hours and won’t even mind passing off that invitation to a charming party.
* I’m bloated. You may feel fat, ugly and bloated just days before your menses. You may also feel some muscle pains and tenderness in your breasts.
* Cravings! You may crave for some food and avoid others. You may want to eat more sweets or something sour during this time.
* Poor concentration. You are clumsier and may feel more restless than usual.

umm it's pretty much true because i've been feeling like this for the whole week!
i dint do much revisions and im feeling really bad but theres nothing i can do
cuz my brain just feels lazy and tired all the time!):
gahh and really, i was having pms for the whole weeeeeeek):
lucky thing was; i only vented my moodswings on my brother (HAHAHA). :)
and i just told him abt this and he's like, how long's your period?
then i said, err, 7days later its ending (k i know its LONG) then he's like, k i shall not talk to you for 7 days. -.- my pms is overrrrrrr but my period is here. >:
kinda sucks. im gg out with my siblings tmr and i expect CRAMPS. i h8 cramps
shall get some pink pills tmrw!:) the ones that sm bought for me the other time finished!
took a long time (duh) hahahaha
k and i just found gregorygorgeous very cool. :)
and im going to bed now. CIAO! ^-^

Flickr.

Flickr Updated!!!
link here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/pistolsandbullets

take a looooook:)

OOooooooooooooooooooooooooo

oh this is bad
haha. i was actually checking smth then i ended up downloading Opera browser on my sis lappy
ohhhhh im gona del it after i've tried it out :P
i also downloaded Opera Mini for my phone simultaneously........
and i cant check my mail >.>
kkkkk and i cant believe im gg to watch movies with my 2 sisters tmr
i just hope that i dont look 20s like them :O
>: im so bad
k buaiz
'

Piccas?

i think i should upload some photos soon!
wordless blog suck):
k piccas tmr ^-^

&& i've been nose-bleeding frequently these days.
think im falling sick >:

Midnight,

oh sweet. my lappy's vol was @ the loudest
cos i was watching some youtube vids. and some people had to online in the middle of the night....... and the "ding" scared me. as in the sound MSN makes when someone came online.....
-.-

suddenly feeling emotional now:O

im sitting on the edge of my bed
thinking of whether you're thinking of me
thinking of the future i have planned
whether it will succeed.
im thinking thru a lot of things
im disappointed that you've rebuked instead of helped
you know the situation well but you didnt help
ohwell..

take me away to a faraway land
bring me off the shores of this place
treat me like a girl that you've wanted the most
kill me with your desire to possess.

dancing to the tune in the middle of the night
wandering about like a lost princess
trekking on the hills of neverland(lol),
falling on the rugged land.

by Jane Choo.
all words above are copyrighted and belonged exclusively to me.

-
ah, finally some words of wisdom
im getting cranky.
lids are threatening to close! but i gotta watch my show
hahaha they rhymes. :)
kk gtg nightnight ^^


P.S: i wonder why some people are ever-so-egoistical :O
the higher you climb, the harder you will fall.
always rmb that! BBBBBBBBitch:)

Facade.

oh gosh, havent been studying in a row of 3 days!! )))))))))):
holiday's ending in a blinkkk of an eye soon, and i must must complete my MATHS tys.
besides that, my sissy got me a new tys, to encourage me, lol.
it's topical though, which is kinda good for me? i guess.

my motivation level gone down drastically, idk why also
its like smth is stuck in my brain, blocking the motivation tunnel
im not moving forward, im there, stagnant
not moving at all.

this is reallllllllllly bad
people are studying very hard, yet im slacking like some shit
oh gosh
i really must study TMRRRR!
damn.
im feeling awful.

missed out a letter? vowel.

k i was typing in a rush that i forgotten my "a"
if you're smart you'll spot it
hehe
k bye!

rushy very rushy

oh god
sometimes i think i sound a little overbearing,
sorry peeps! really, i need to change the way i speak sometimes
i speak in a fury when im impatient:O
and i get kinda pissed when people cant hear properly and i hear MY echos
hahahaha i meant that i get pissed when i have to repeat :x
hahah k theres an outing tmr
hope it will be successful
after that there will be NO more outings )=
time to concentrate :)

k AND i havent finished my zuo wen yettttttttt
this is BAD. i have to pass up BY tmr
gosh
im v tired, feel like sleeping naoooooooooooooooooooooow
and im meeting YS at 720 )=
so early. hahah theres sch tmr @ 730 am ~ 930
hope that its plain doing work & consultations if not i'l go mad >:O
k bye!

im kinda typing-in-rush.

Sleepy.

Hihi people! :) finally here to post!
ohman, the fan is blowing @ my face which is making me sleepy!
its 6pm now!!!! i havent started studying. very (Y) huhhhhhhh im watching tv ltr on!
gosh, procrastinating queen here. ):

k lemme update abt ytd!
it was funnnnnnnnn to da max!
or rather, happy:)

sch ended @ 12.30 (YAY!) then me, geraldine & kenneth wento wait for yingshu, alex & dion:)
but due to me this, ever-late queen, i went home first to prep:) cuz they've brought their clothes along.
homed, bathed and such. left house @ 220pm.

reached Tampines Library @ 245pm? idk. hahaha
then went up 2nd floor find them....
oh man, it was freaking quiet, i mean, ya i know its a library but really quiet till you can hear a pin drop. and i lost my earpiece rubber there!!!! freaking sad):
oh! dint mention that i saw Alex on the bus, so qiao! hahahah he didnt recognise me:O

he came after we came back from buying food:)
then kenneth came.......
then rayner, clarence and jiahui came........
lol. talkstudylaugh, around 420pm walked to Tampines Mall.

OH and OTW there, there's this indian tomboy, who claimed to be from New Hope blablabla idk what company and wants us to purchase this DIRECT SELLING thingy
first, she was rambling on and on to Alex Kenneth and Dion.
after that i asked Alex to summarise for me.
he said she was asking us to donate
so i asked her.

Me: Er, what are donating for?
She: its not a donation (runs off to get some cert/card shit) *points to "direct selling company'
blablabla
Me: Sorry, we're still students and we're rushing off to somewhere, probably you could get those wearing formals to buy your products
She: *walks away with a black face.

TMD, super attitude please!
even if people doesnt wanna buy your product, they doesnt deserve to be treated like this.
really fucked upppppppppppppppppp >:O

then had Pizzahut for late lunch, super full:)
thanks geraldine for lending me some $$:)

afterwards, took 27 to buangkok MRT and trained to DhobyGhaut
while the rest alighted @ Kovan MRT and Alex & Kenneth was like bye-ing damn loudly.
hahahaha but kinda made me feel, "what a clique i have!" - in a good way of course! :D

alighted @ DhobyGhaut and i wento the toilet:)
meanwhile, eve found me in the toilet!
hahaha after that we met jevis outside watsons'!

they ate while i walked ard somewhere cuz i alr ate:)
afterthat, MR LENNARD came. took so damn long and hai us miss our movie! )))):
then after that wento arcade to pass some time. and i was getting bored.
daiwei came! and we went over to PC Bunk, errr, Jcube i think. aiya, lan shop:)

played MAPLESTORY2. HAHAHAHAHAH
ancient game. i know! kinda craving for it sometimes, so played!:D
but im kinda noob in it -.- and i told dw : "last time's rares, become today's ancients"
get it? nvm if you dont. haha:)

then played AUDITIONSEA, ok i suck): i dont like. lol
then played COUNTERSTRIKE, the mouse toooooo slippery~ noob haha
then wanted to play LEFTFORDEAD but need some acc thing so cant play!
left a few minutes so i played LEMONADE TYCOON2, lmao. lame game
signed out and we home sweet home!:)

absolutely a FUN DAY.
OHYA! we took some NEOPRINTS TOOOO!
long time didnt take alr :)
not very well taken but i LIKE!:)

absolutely luving my life NOW!
dedicate my loves to:

jinsheng, daiwei, eve, lennard, kristin, kinweng. (not in order! as a clique!)
yingshu, geraldine, rachel, alex, kenneth. (not in order! as a clique!)
<3 much.

and my soon-to-be-recovering BFF friendship, LJY:)
<3 to allllll

K I AM MOTIVATED.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~!

Britney Spears - Womanizer - Parody

LOL

Lady Gaga - Poker Face - Parody ("Outer Space")

Lol. :)

ROBERT PATTINSON NAKED??! FAVE VAMPIRE? - HEIDI MONTAG NO BEAVER?!! - I LOVE THE BATTERYS DOWN

LOL, he talks damn fastttttttttttttt :O

HOW TO GET "BIG" ON YOUTUBE!

HAHAHAH FUNNY. MUST WATCH THE BLOOPERS~!

THE DEATH GAME!!!!!

HAHA freaking funny. watch it! :D

Fred Has a Vocal Lesson

HA. kinda funny.

Random Acts: SINGING your McDonalds order!! (WATCH THIS)

Cool video! :D

Hates

no, i dont like you
and im gonna make it very clear that i - hate - you
damn it, you suck a lot. but the fact that you're damn egoistical, its hard to tell you face-to-face.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

im gonna study today!
its 2.13pm NOW, im late. for calling JiaYou. hahahahah
:)

updating later!
i luv yesterday.
i luv my cliques;D

Determination

Just a quickie:)

prelims results were out.
i think i did badly, i failed 3 subs, including all-time favourite - Maths.
haha. but i love my language results;)
got back the time capsule today, ohgosh.
to think i was aiming for like 4 As, now all i got was b,c,e,f
i really gotta improve my maths!! any helpers?
haha. im really a goner~

tmr the overall ranking list will be out.
and im pretty glad that im not at the bottom 20% if not that dinosaur at home 's gonna start kicking up a big fuss again!

also going out during the evening to watch The Proposal w evelyn, jevis & lennard:)
sat and sun will be studying, the sept holidays will be intensive~
and im kinda sad, cos now my L1R4 is 27. my target is 12.
and my largest obstacle is my MATHS. ):
friends are telling me to aim B3 B4....
but to me, if i pass i happy alr. LOL
cus i've been failing my maths since sec2 after that WOOTUCKSENG taught us
damn. sucker!
haha

talked alot these days
hahahaha i really cant stand people backstabbing others
and on the front still smiling to you like nothing happened
please, walls have ears:)
but the bottomline is: gossiping doesnt hurt. approving the gossip when you are the accused's friend hurts, alot.

hmmmmmm
i was downloading and transfering some vids
but in the end it can't be found. WTH.
i spent like 2hrs....
and, to think i managed to not use comp for most of the days
ok the sentence sounded weird.
what i meant was: i'm glad that i dint spend a lot of my time this week on using comp!
which is great:)
gonna go offline soon. 2hr limit is UPPPP

and i have chi compos to write!
tmr passing up, sian.

after this 10weeks, it will be prom
kinda exciting:)
hahahahaha but i'd better buck up!!
my poa dropped to a c6 you know! JUST PASSED.
i used to get A1. sad la):

i slept during POA today
super tired, idk why);

53 more days to freedom
to end of studyingstudyingstudying!
and dont have to see faces of ppl i dont like:)
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa best.
bye!!

Ouch.

Ohmygod.
i think if theres anything she wants to settle with her boyfriend,
she should really do it behind closed doors.
and it looks kinda painful. and shes holding a SHOE, btw.
lol.

2 words.

Remember the times we sworn that we'd be sisters forever,
remember the times we'd said we will stay tgt or side-by-side with our families
or before we got married.
we had big dreams and we'd say anything to each other under the sun.

people change, things change
perceptions changed too, how you feel how i feel changes by the time flies
its hard to tell , to estimate the change
but when you really did, it was really obvious

well, im not blaming anyone or anybody
im simply stating my feelings, if you dont like it
or you detest it or whatever, you can simply dont read
i didnt state names or whatever, its really my own feelings..

when the biggest blow was over, the only feeling i've got was numbness
it numbed all the pain you've caused me, it numbed everything we had tgt
it was just like a mirror misted by the water vapour
everything was a blur.

when the vapour evaporates, whats left was a piece of dusted surface
which is akin to a glass ball
it dropped from the greatest height and shattered
after it was mended, it still had its lines and cracks
no amt of mending will help..
i am that fragile.

you maybe wouldnt even knew.
until i've said this
after you've dealt me with the biggest blow, i could almost become someone with no hard feelings
someone whom you can push me over, yet i could stand up and walk away
someone with no pride nor dignity
maybe.. thats really what happened
i have no energy over certain things
friendships are like intangible to me
its invisible by nature
because its strung by feelings, real feelings.

no matter how much you've hurt your friend
at the end of the day, you will still be friends
because you've once shared the greatest memories tgt
it was tagged along with the feelings, thats why you can never ever, severe all ties
all friendship ties with a friend.
however you'd liked it, you can never forget, your lost friend
because you once had great memories with her, you will never forget about her

its like me
sometimes i have this urge to message you abt something exciting i've found
only to realise that we're no longer friends
i can no longer tell you about my secrets about my stuffs or things i've found out
its terrible, because i used to tell you everything, from the top to the bottom of my heart
i can never hide anything from you
because you can tell.

but now, i cant tell anyone
and i feel terrible
my heart is like packed, full of sorrows full of troubles
its struggling to come out like a kept dragon
my heart is strung tight with barriers that prevented it to come out
to get released

maybe i seemed cheerful on the exterior
but i ain't,
ain't the cheerful Jane anyone used to know anymore.
i've changed, alot.
i feel.

well, if you are not even CLOSE to me in the first place
dont bother commenting.
if you think that im being drama mama here then dont read
if you have so much comments you should keep it to yourself.

really hate it when sometimes one blogpost of mine could be the talk of the town.
and im not kidding or boasting.
i know whos gossiping and all.
haha. i have 'thousand miles ears' - if that even made sense
hahaha.

-
apart from that..
lemme update abt my life:)

FRIDAY .

LAST PAPER!! yayyy
but it didnt went well though, i tried hard to study the night before
but i FAILED..........
so yeah, didnt study. haha
after school, wento Compass w/ yingshu, alex and jocelyn.
had my breakfast @ KFC......
then went to SKCC and met rachel & lester.
waited for the rest to come.

had geraldine's sushi :)
its nice with the mayo that alex brought. :)
hahaha
after that wento yingshu's house to see bossy.
aww~ i want a dog too! hahaha
i love dogs who can fetch stuffs AND come back with it
hahaha.
slackslack there and changed into geraldine's clothes.

wento Hougang Plaza for pool:)
first time there & first time playing pool.
hahaha.
thanks (rachel, lester, yingshu, geraldine) for teaching me! haha
played for 2hrs and wento Hougang Mall for late lunch :)

after that, alex & kenneth came.
walk walk ard and bought a flower & card for Mr Er!:D
i went home after that:) while the rest wento tuition:)

homed ard 530pm..
changed and all and brought my hammie down to 299 bbcourt
met rachel & lester there.
slackslack and became spectators. hahaha
homed @ 9pluspm ?
bathed & slept:)
FUN DAY!<3

SATURDAY.
hmmmmm, woke up ard 11plusam
reached sch ard 12pluspm, waited for Mr Er to release them and i gave him the prezzie:)
hahah took instrument home too. goshh it was damn heavy, brought foxy home!!):
long time didnt take alr, my macho muscles sunk alr. HAHAHA
homed and wento compass with sis
walkwalkeateatseesee
i cant believe we went home only at ard 7pluspm
long day @ compass, my legs was breaking tho i was wearing FLATS.
goodness.
tv-ed and all, read my book till 4plusAM and slept;)

TODAY.
woke up @ 1pm to watch The Legend:)
back to bed @ 3pm:)
all the way till 7plus, bathed:)
tv and dinner. and now using comp
SLACKY day. planned to do my maths
but mood ruined):
kkkkkkkkkk gtg!

you belong with me - taylor swift request

To say shes weird, its an understatement.
To say shes funny, its an overstatement.

and shes out of tune @ some parts.

"You Belong With Me" - Taylor Swift (COVER)

ok damn it
now i cant post!!
friggin hate blogger la
am so angry nowwwwwwww

Friggin inconsiderate!!!!

okay. im getting annoyed.
i cut my post and wanted to post a photo......
and i copied the photo url forgetting that i have cut my post
AND NOW MY POST IS GONE. )))))))))))))))))))))))):
and im annoyed cuz im currently watching a youtube vid, and its tutorial
but the girl's camera is soooooooo lousy and somemore got the fan keep blowing
so its like blowing towards the mic, and its IRRITATING
fffffffffffffffff and now my post is gone.
>:O
>:O
pissssssssed.
AH.


i was saying that...............
POA paper 1 was toughshit.
damn it, i dont feel like repeating
NO MOOD TO POST.
im sorry but i cant help it
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Smosh Snatchers

HAHAHAHA THIS WAS FREAKING FUNNY.

Bigfoot is Gay

LOL.
i thought bigfoot could fly?
no! thats bigbird!
HAHA
LAME

Bored.

Hihi ^^
shall post a shortttttt post and im off to my nap.
soooooo, had school ytd and went out with Rachel after school!
super regret didnt went home & change (if you've read my tweets you'll know)
hahaha. actually went to collect my memory card for my phone.
finally i can camwhore on my phone! :) hehehe
then lunched @ LJS and Lester came.

then we went to several places and caught Turning Point @ Film Garde (?)
its @ ilumaaaaaaaa. so ya. i went bugis in my school uniform. -?!?!?!?!-
because we didnt plan to do so much things....... hahahah
the cinema kinda sucks but the movie was pretty good;)
but its kinda messy tho. haha
rate it around 3.5/5 popcorns? haha.

after that walked alllll the way to farrer park
and we saw a pretty Lamborghini ;)
and we ate @ some scissor cut coffee house.
hahahha the wireless was 'scissor cut' but it was locked-.-
nice food but was spicyyyyyy (for me la) haha.

trained home aft that.
bathed and loitered ard my house. hahahaha
started studying only @ 11pm. -.-
i gave up @ 1145pm;)
-

TODAY.

had chi prelims2 today.
hmmmmmmmm overall i think its okay.
but kinda fumbled somewhere here and there.
homed after that and i used the comp for near 3 hrs!!
time to nappy nap nap.
there's POA tmr and FNN the day after.
i WANNA WATCH COCO BEFORE CHANELLLLLLLLLLLLL
someone watch with me pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee ):
awww i sound pathetic. hahaha
told ya im lacking of fwens. ):

k gtg NO COMP later!!
byeeeeee

sometimes theres no turning point once you've made a mistake.

Union Jack

feel so accomplished!
hahahahaha
but i blogshopped like 1hr alrrr
gtg goodnight!

WOW.

Picture one
Picture two

wow, didnt know such books existed.
click on the linkies! ^^

Shirim

Music for Genting.
ignore the people dancing. lol.

Great day:D

Heyho people!
kinda in a good mood now cuz im going to post about ystd:)
it was greatttttttttt2damax. :D

so anyways, had school in the morning till 1.30pm :)
last period was FNN and we had a test. damn, i only spent 45mins doing the paper.
its like 2hr paper but i only spent 45mins.
i didnt took the test seriously tho. after i've finished, i was listening to my mp3 and sleeping
ok, i didnt sleep. haha. couldnt fell asleep:)
so main point is; it was basically relaxing. HAHA
like 3/4 of the class doing other things except for FNN. lollllll

homed after school and started to paint my nails
i spent like 1hr plus painting it, but it was a goner. ):
bathed and preped. actually watching Orphan @ 345pm
BUT i was late and terribly guilty about it ))))))))))))):
met Jinsheng @ Dhobyghaut eventually at around 4pm.

trained to Cineleisure and bought tix.
had lunch @ Kobayashi :)
chit chat and time flew. hahaha

overall review of Orphan, great show! but kinda gory at times.
idk how to explain but its kinda blooodish. hahaha
5/5 popcornz for this movie!! :)
didnt regret watching it and thanks Jinsheng for accompanying me to watch!!:D
hahaha

movie ended ard 8pm?
then took bus to Dw's house.
reached there around 9pm
when we reached, Eve was leaving alr ):
Sorry girl! i promised a makeup-mahjong session soon!!
after that we started playing mahjongggg, there were Lennard, Dw, Js and me:)
some really funny things happened during the game. lol
overall it was fun la! hahahah
gtg @ 11plus cuz my dad is gonna scream again -.-
they acc me wait bus, and Lennard sent me to the mrt :) thankyou~
tired journey home. from harbourfront ~ sengkang.
i almost finished the north-east mrt line. hahahaha
home sweet home :)

quickly changed and pretended like i was home early
dad bought fish and chips for us as supper (YAY!) and i watched huan huan ai
am gonna watch a few ep later. saw the ad on tv just now and kinda got tempted!!
oh and i had fastfood for this whole week man. ):
will get sick sooner or laterrrrrr.

ok gotta go do some miscellaneous things now!
byebyebyebyebye.


-
idk if you're mentioning about me
everythings so uncertain when you have more than one companion by your side
and im feeling insecure.

MIA

Oops. MIA-ed for a tad too long.
hahahaha maybe for me.
3 days didnt use comp, abit not used);

recent updates:
got back chi Os result. got a B3 and oral distinction. so im retaking:)
english oral just finished yesterday:)
and i've just uploaded jinsheng's bday celebration photos on facebook!
link here: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=100697&id=739713726&l=cf6a1903ce
LIKE FINALLY. im feeling so guilty over it for like this period of time!

short update, tmr will be a long one i guess?
its 2am now!!! rushing to sleep. :D

And ya, apologies to Jinsheng.
havent upload your birthday photos yet):
will do it latest by tmr!
really sorry.

Hush Hush

i cried and cried just now
my tears couldnt stop flowing
guess what happened again?
my sister threatened to slap me just now, just because i ate 3/4 of her expensive chocolates
and please, it has been there for a MONTH. so i dont think its surprising
but she just took it as a big deal and scolded me like nobody's business

i didnt cry because she scolded me
i cried because she wanted to slap me, just BECAUSE of a box of expensive chocolates
and i did apologised. like twice.

and remember the other time, the camera thing
she wanted to throw the chair at me

first time is a mistake
second time, definitely not a mistake
so i dont think that she did that in a minute of fury

so i am very disappointed now
no one has ever dared to lay a finger on me
esp my parents.
they treated me like their treasure
now my eldest sis wanted to slap me just because of that stupid box of expensive chocolates
isn't it ridiculous?
and the fact that she threatened to hurt me twice
just left me a very big impact
like now my tears just couldnt stop flowing

our kinship is worth lesser than a box of expensive chocolate?
*claps
im speechless.


whenever i told you i cried, you would say, "hush.. dont cry"
i miss you.

Unrequited.

Oh gosh.
i cant imagine that i've watched queen of no marriage (tw drama) for like hours straight!!
after ys left my house, i started watching, watching and watching.
im @ disc 3 alrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
im so tempted to put it in my psp tmr watch. LOL
i know you think very kua zhang
cuz i scared i will watch it again on SUNDAY
which im gonna do some hardcore mugging!! cuz MATHS (the killer) paper is cominggggg
and im gonna be so dead.
and im going out tmrrrrrrr to celebrate Jevis' birthday!:)
hope it will turn out to be success.

well, kinda sad. today didnt get to go out
haha, wanted to do some shopping.

and today's National Day celebration in school was CRAPPY.
seriously, we wasted our time there!
but i really luvvvvvvv it when the BAND played.
its soooooo lovely, though there's some out of tunes
hahahahah but i really like it when i see saiful hitting the drums:)
its like, so stylo milo can!
hahahaha
k im suddenly very high
-.-

but yep, other than that.
i think all others are crap.
to think that i came because this is my last time in CVSS celebrating the nation's birthday.
in the end like thattttttttttt. >:O

im going to bathe soon alrd.
hahahaha but i think after that i'm gonna be watching fated to love you
oh gosh, im suddenly a drama freak
hahaha

k im really nutty
bye!

WANT.S

ME WANT THIS.
VERY MUCH. )))))))))):
and i kinda need to shop.
gosh.

end of the world ?

http://www.nowpublic.com/environment/2012-end-world
read it!:)

>:O

ok......
i had a (self-proclaimed) school holiday
HAHAHA. i wanted to take the day off to study BIO
but i slept for like half the day and now im using comp
but i had reasons! because my phone suddenly cannot save pictures on the memory card
then i called the samsung people but they cant solve my problem! argh
then he say i have to go down to the service center......
im LAZY. ):
then i tried to FORMAT my memory card
the things inside are like spirits. LOL cannot del one!!
del alr then i replug, its still THERE
gosh im going mad
dinner's back. after tv @ 7 i shall STUDY
I MUST finish bio today
like impossible
but yeahhhhhhhhhhh i shall try!
i need to have GREAT results this time!! :)

小猪跟他爸说 // Funny Pigs Conversation // www.Lemongraphic.net

HAHA. funny.
but i watched before alr
teehee

Singlish chat from 98.7FM Animation http://www.lemongraphic.net

HAHAHAHHAHAAHHA
ROFLMAO.

I AM CHANGING URL SOON!
WILL UPDATE HERE.
KTHXBAI!

i officially detest blogger.

OK, i had a post written just NOW
but stupid blogger suddenly refreshed and ate up my post. >:O
ANW, i was saying.....
that my itchy hands on-ed the lappy and i have used the lappy for hours!
that IS BAD. VERY BAD.
i should have studied!
i should have gone to the NSP so that i would have used 2HOURS wiselyyyy manz
but i didnt wanna go cuz i dont wanna see somebody
awww hahaha wasted right
k. im like hungry now

random: i found coupons for the 24hr kpt @ rvmall
hehehe im so gonna keep it! now supper dont hurt my pocket ^^
like a 2.50$ chicken rice:)
hahahahha

-
the fear is overwhelming
the fear of reading
im so scared.
-

ohya. i really envy people who have the time to study
and USE comp in the same day
AWESOME. (Y)

Monkey and Dog doing Situps

HAHAHAHHAHA
ROFLMAO

i need no pity
or maybe i need tons of them
i need no friendship
or maybe i need tons of them
the great spirit had risen
and the evil shall be eradicated
i have no limit of vocabulary
i know i sounded scary
it just flowed out of my mind like a philosophy
oh, how i admired great friendships
people like me, shall never cease to exist.

x

Winter Solace.

I am devastated.
the art of healing wasn't definitely potent enough for me.
i need friends
i need advices
i dont need lovers
i dont need admirers
i have alot to say
but my heart stopped me and i shall never speak.
anymore.
it shall all be kept
in a secret locket
shaped like a heart shape.

keep me true
keep me well
keep me in your fallen star
i shall be of great strength to you when you need me
i shall be your best partner where-ever the need arises
i shall be silent and humble
seal my lips.
and i shall be gone.

x

Maybe it didnt really change at all.

this time i fell so hard
way too hard
the pain is tremendous
i felt the change.
the intensity was so great.
you were different. you've changed. perhaps to suit the mood you're in now?
i was too overwhelmed by the change that i chose to close up
to close up my heart and not let anyone in
i kept the key in the most secretive place ever.
i really cannot let myself suffer anymore hurt as it will certainly ruin my life
i put in so much effort for this yet it became like this
maybe things will change. who knows? i am not sure.
it is like the future is so unpredictable. people's moods are even worse
so hard to predict.. and when they are having bad mood
normally you will get the worst hit
when you have damaged a huge blow to someone beloved
the only way to heal the hurt is sew up the stitch with your own hands
time will heal. yes?
but time however is a limiting factor
a factor that is not infinite.
it will end someday.


some things really peeled open the bare fact
the fact that have been covered by dust, and a relationship
it was so vivid. its threatening.
i like to think out loud because i'm not afraid
not afraid of letting others know what i am feeling
i dont like concealing
concealing my feelings werent exactly my forte
i dont like to hide my feelings because if you want to have a true friendship/kinship or wdv
honesty is really the policy
no matter if it hurt me or the other party
this are all inevitable. you cannot avoid all these

if you choose to conceal and let the layer to pile on and on and on
sooner or later you will find yourself lost in the maze of concealed feelings
even though the truth might be too great, too powerful sometimes
i have to face it. face that obvious fact that things are changing, people are changing
the way people feel change
how people treat things also change

there is also no point in you sitting at one corner and emo
i dont think there's any point in doing this
i believe, everyone , in their tiny space in their heart yearned for some attention
no matter you're emo / loner / wdv, you wil yearn for attention
because of attention, some people will do things that are so. out of my imagination
and because of that the consequence was so great
dont ask me who because i am just speaking randomly.
i can refer to anyone :)

the purpose of posting out my thoughts didnt hold the malicious thought of harming people or just make them feel bad or whatever
its often a space where people read and reflect in their lives
what really went wrong or maybe they should change their attitude in their ways of changing
i also didnt want to post my thoughts and make people h8 me
when people h8 me after reading blog, it was then i realised that people actually couldnt face up to the harsh fact.
maybe you think that all those are rubbish or whatever
all these just flows out of my mind now
i didn't script this or whatever. so yepp

on a side note: my phone got a little cranky!!! it just wouldnt save my piccas and i have to bring it down to plaza singapura to repair it. awwwwwwwwww im so lazy. ):
-
i really, need a confidante.

ok, i genuinely didnt miss school on purpose!
it was pure, luck-.-
i was having a serious tummyache this morning and i nearly died inside
i still feel weak now!

ltr gotta go cp meet yingshu to get prezzie for mrs lim tmr
aw. the party is tmr~ kinda weird or sudden
i should study!
k nvm bye:)

looking forward to FRIDAY:)
$.$

wooo
finally updated photos
go check 'em out yea?
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Piccas!

i luv cash registers alot, last time! because i aspired to be a CASHIER.
unexpected right? hahahaha.


clikclik.

Stiletto, bingo. Rhymes aye?

Helloooooooooo people.!
oooooooh and i didnt went school today!
hehe. i was rather hesitating whether to GO or not to GO.
guess im a naughty girl afterall. decided not to GO because
1) i havent finish my MATHS homework -> see! yoga stress kills me!
2) i didnt revise SS -> i was feeling guilty): but i fell asleep after reading about SADDAM HUSSEIN.
great huh. :)

wella, i woke up around 12pm
my first reaction was: ohno. so late already.
LOL. because initially i wanted to wake up after my father left for work
then i could do my revisions peacefully at home. but plan failed!):
so anywayz, bro came home and we cooked lunch for ourselves:)
and its already 6pm naoooooooo, i desperately need to study already.
hope that it will be a success tho! so that today won't go to waste.

i swear that i WILL NOT skip schoool anymore!
cuz this morn, my bro said: "you really dont look like someone who's gonna take Olevels" - ok of cuz his sentence wasnt so long. hahaha. i edited it but its the same meaning.
so YEA. i was very depressed after he said this >:

because..
its not that i want to skip school desperately
if you've been thru what i have, you might have the same thoughts as me
and, i feel that maths is pushing me off the edge
i freak out whenever theres maths homework
altho there's only 1 set of past year paper
and it really freaks me out that yoga wants us to complete this or that within a time frame
it really scares me out
makes me step back
i dont dare to step out front bcause im so afraid i will fall off the cliff

altho part B is almost finishing, i mean we're done
but there's certainly drafts to be completed
just hope that i dont have a lot of edit. i h8 editing>: (altho it helps but somehow you'll abhore it because it takes up alot of brain juice)
however! i have decided to START studying
like today. haha
i know like very slow & last min or whatever

but at least im starting now right?
i rubbed my eyes in disbelief (sp? drama mama i know) when i was browsing /looking at the calender yesterday night.
like prelims coming damn fast. and soon it will be the O levels
till now havent receive the DPA thingy, quite sad la
think i no chance alr
then i will have to work doubly hard for the Os so that i get good results

but the thing with me is:
i study better outside
theres NSP in school but i think its pretty useless
because theres like RULES and pathetic TWO hours
seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyy, i h8 rules. h8h8h8h8 rules. although i was ONCE in the MILIARY band. hahahaha
disciplineeeeeee but i often flout them though! i mean during uppersec times
lowersec was the observing-rules-window-period. haha
weird. weird words kept popping up in my head

SN told me that my blog is naggy, long-winded
so im kinda havin the phobia of having long posts
cuz i like people reading my thoughts and UNDERSTAND me.
no point you read alr then you dont geddit and still h8 me in the end
so no point eh?
hahaha
i have reasons for doing everything and anything ya know<:

i know the words are lil puny
but you know you can upsize them by pressing
ctrl + scroller of your mouseeeeee
it will UP UP UP and become bigger
idk is roll forward or backward. ownself trial and error kay.:)
hahaha

i think my phone is done charging

so i shall update photos like soon!:)

anyways if you find yourself cant posting piccas,
ask me kay! ask me and i will help you solve:)
genius. HAHAHA no la im kidding:)
but yep the answering part is true tho.
^^

x

Making a basic tube top

its cool.
but its so fast that you can only stare at the video
haha. not productive but interesting:)

20 Questions

just subscribed to her!
shes so cute. watch till the end! :D

Thinspiration. Cool? Not.

Okay. i actually wanted to post..
like, 4 hours ago? but i was reading and reading and bloghopping and bloghopping.
haha. so...
i went out yesterday. an average day i guessed?
met Felix @ Plaza Singapura and bought the tix for Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.
then while waiting for Ranson (why he is always late!! >:O), we walked around PS.
was uber awkward... i was actually wondering why me this very powerful ice-breaker cant even break the ice this time. hahaha
its really. w.e.i.r.d ):
put that aside.

so.. i went Daiso for some random shopping
Lol. its filled with people. i wouldnt say flooded. but yep, filled.
then i randomly, got this "hair-cutting scissors" from there:)
as you know, i have bangs. and bangs require frequent trimmings otherwise it will just grow longer and longer and longer~
so for that, you cant expect me to go to the salon and trim my hair rightttttttttt
like its quite absurd actually. haha
so i bought it:)

then walkwalkwalkwalk, wento TS? or TCS? wdv. haha
i went in, and guess what i was finding?
i was finding for The Legend! and they have it!!!
but its 21.90$! ):
im like @ ep 8 naooooooooooooooo~!
total episodes: 24!
i have to wait for many SUNDAYs to finish the show leyyyyyyy):
1 day = 2ep
8 days = 16 ep
is that correct? Lol. my maths suck >:O
pardon me if there are any errors!

so yea, around 3plus he finally came......
walked ard, and we wento KFC for lunch.
had FISH zinger meal. damn it, it was damnnnnnnnn bloody spicy.
i mean, for me la. i dont take hot stuffs, so it might be tad tooo spicy for me.
if you've read abt my twitter updates, you would have known this as well:)
but yea, my tongue was totally burning. and throughout my mind i was like "fuck, why so spicy one!!!!"
you might ask me, why didnt eat the chicken zinger instead?
because.... i have to wait TEN minutes for it and i was STARVING!
so i didnt wanna wait, and since i havent tried the FISH zinger (yea i know im slow) yet, so i thought that i could try it out.
yepppp so in the end i was full, not because of my meal. because of my PEPSI.
hahahaha could guess why right?

went in cinema @ 5pm
ok, its even weirder then~
Ranson was busy msging while me and felix was like, spacing out?
lol, idk la. AWKWARD DAY!!!

movie started ard 5.30pm i think?
ended 8pm:)
mmmm, basically, this movie only shows the death of dumbledore(?) and half blood prince's identity - severus snape(?)
lol. and if you think 2 and half hours is long
wait till you watch this movie, you will realise that it isnt that LONG afterall.
so yep, quite nice la :)
i like the competition that part:)
4/5 stars for this:)

after that the guys were hesitating whether or not to meet their friends @ TTHG (tian tian huo guo) then in the end, they did.
so went over to TTHG and it was reallllllllllllllll awkward!
because i dont know them @ all and its filled with PEOPLE.
so yea, imagine you alone standing there, like people staring @ you, wondering why you're standing there and curious stares from his friends..
might not be embarassing/ as awkward like what ive mentioned here
but its REALLY.REALLY.awkward!

after that, went down.
they had some chitchat. like 4 of them...
and i waited for them at the side.
its overall, extremely weird...........
oh ya, its filled with wannabes where ever i go!!! makes me sick. -.-
so after that we went over to Bugis Junction and had dinner @ the foodcourt
damn. the chicken rice suck!!!
after the movie i was feeling sick and awful
so i just any-o-how ordered food

the chicken rice was really awful that i didnt finish it.
waste of money. $4 leh. hahaha not that i am money faced but $4 should at least deliver some good food right!
played with the food after that. hahahaha
but i got pretty annoyed with the ahlianz and bengz there. irritating>:O
after that walked around and went Street:)
coooooooool. so many stuffs i wanna get!
did get a pair of studs tho:)

after that wento the mrt station
and waited for his friends..
when they arrived, it was extreme awkwardness situation again.
so sian. lol.
the whole going-back-to-sengkang-trip was nothing but awkward~ ):
BUT! just when i was in the MRT while heading back to dhoby,
i called luv. and yay! saviour of my life mannnnnnnnnnnnnz
she accompanied me all the way till sengkang, just nice her battery died when i was at the lift lobby. fated, isnt it!

best friends are always there for you no matter what! :)
hahahaha really appreciated thatttttttt
anw i was home and i took my temp cuz earlier on i mentioned that i was sick right?
i took 4 times, and it turned out - 37.8/37.9/38.0/38.0
ohmy. first time i hit 38.0!
lollllllllll so after that i removed makeup bathed and i ate some panadol and slept:)
-

TODAY.

woke up early and played w/ my NDS
hehe. basically rotting lah
watched The Legend and My Girl
but My Girl was crappy tho! they skippped episodes!!! >:O
spent time bloghoppping, blogshopping and i found a teacher of mine during sec 1's blog!
ok, not really a teacher but she taught us BAND GIRLS, YAGIBUSHI!!
DIANA, AND HIDAYA. remember?!
so yep, it was a weblog though
shes a beauty junkie!
hahaha
shal end here i know its abrupt but my sissy is rushing!
kay byebyebyebye!


o ya.
read his blog: http://fauzirassull.blogspot.com/
i dont know if hes gay or transvestite. i think both same?
but yea, judge him yourself!
bye!

The Pussycat Dolls - Hush Hush (Lisa Lavie)

superb (Y)

Mascara Business Card Trick

cool :)
she's kinda funny.
hahaha. first time:)

YAY

WOOOO. i can finally post!
ok its 2 am alr im sleeping!!

oh ya!
if you're very bored
you can read this:
http://www.bandfusion.sg/newsletter/August2009.pdf

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOh no.

oh damn. my post page still looks weird!!!
but anyways, today's a great day!!
a happy one!!:)

paid a visit back to BAND!:)
and it cheers me up somehow!
saw jason there tooooo.
awwwwwwwww, he needs to perform ): haha. cuz sat & sun have rehearsals and they have to report at like 645am?! LOL

so yeppp went there and just nice they having sectionals
so i had a little chit chat and a little spot check :) after that mr er came and he was happy to see me:) so was i! long time no seeeeeeeee, he's still the same old er. :D

band's attendance was bad tho..
so lil people~
but the sound was full, just like what he said:)
i think after the SYF, mr er picked himself up and he's more optimistic now!:)
which is good. :)
haha

but i left awkwardly though
haha. so embarassing!
but nvm, i walked home wearing a smile on my face!
so its great, right?
heeheee
byeeeeeeeeee

So much to say.

Ah. just look at my title.
i really have a lot of things to say
a lot of things to release.
anyways, i read some archives and was kinda laughing my ass out.
haha! memories. everywhere. :)
tmr's FRIDAY! time flies.

today's SS mock was retarded.
haha. idk how to do (c).
like ?!?!?!?! and its so freaking hot in the stupid hall >:O
halfway thru, heard band members doing their sectional
and i heard Nicholas Lee TSK-ING. i was like wtf. -.-
altho it wasn't perfect music, he dont have to be like that right!!!
ok. shan't bother about him
shall START on my FNN now
yes. im so great.
tmr's the deadline and im gonna be DEAD
cuz im having flu NOWWWWW!!

-
maybe sometimes, you ought to stand in my shoes and think
because different shoes carries different thoughts and feelings
what you feel might not be what i felt.
and while on the process of considering your own feelings
did you ever consider mine?
considering my feelings when you've released all your thoughts and emotions
was difficult. because what you had wanted to say had already been expressed.
there is no way to rectify any mistake while you're releasing. its the same as me being unable to rectify the wrongs and mistakes i have done. because it had already happened. doing anything more or less will only make things worse and will not make it good.
perhaps you did consider my feelings. maybe too much. that you just cannot tolerate me anymore and decided to just say it once and for all.
don't you realize that it was always like this?
you always accumulate your anger, feelings and emotions till one day you finally decided that "no, i have had enough" and you just released, all the bad emotions that have accumulated over time.
our friendship is always on and off, on and off.
just like the lights or electrical appliances.

it will hardly spoil.
but frequently switching it on and off will only wear the light bulb out
and soon, the filament will get burnt (?) and everything will be lost.
of course. i would not want that ending to happen in real life
therefore i treated this crisis very seriously as this is our last year in sec school and if we were to burn this friendship out, it would be very wasted for both me and you. because i am very sure to say that i really dont want to lose you, the friend that i have made for like 3plus years? and my best friend.

maybe this post sounded harsh and straightforward
but i really just want to express out what i have felt
because although i understand about how you're feeling
you cannot eradicate the fact that i also have my own thoughts and emotions about this. i just hoped that everything will be back to normal.
[there is no way we can start from the basic as the process of falling from the top was torturous and we can only continue from where we fell.] - i know it makes no sense but what i'm trying to mean is that,
its impossible to start from the basic..
get well soon :)
luv.

edit.

ok i decided that it will be 50% or maybe 100% la.
heehee, my mood is happier now. :)
i mean, better...

i feel happy when i read my post.
idk why. hope whoever's reading will feel happy too?
i like seeing people smiling, happy.

"but everytime i tried, i get tongue-tied.."
(random)

ok seriously im getting bored
thats why i became like that
ahhhhhhh
siao liao
k
i shall post random things

i havent finished my FNN
and i think i will fall sick sooner or later
cuz i keep having irregular sleep,
having unhealthy food and have an array of emotions...
which means everyday i experience-
happy sad mad excited tired stress
all these. will cause my hormones to change......

ok im still excited for sat
its not really becuz im watching harry potter
but more of that i can dress up and go out!!
it has been long..........
so i hope that sat will be a success
if not i will be damn damn sad):

and i seriously need to walk ard
im getting slow
in terms of fashion
hahaha cant stay @ home and expect me to be updated with fashion right!!
k idk what im talking about alr

-----------------------------
this long distance is killing me.
can you hear me crying?

Drowned

so, the post page is still cranky.
i wanted to post some picturesss!
but its ok but anw i hope that tmr we can go to the LAB cuz i haven't finish my FNN and i doubt im gonna sleep! if not i will be in coma till like 5plusPM.

tmr's racial harmony day!
i remembered 1 year ago's this day i've said some things to some people :)
haha but it can never be fulfilled because....... haha. dont tell you :P

nvm i think im superb cuz the posting box become like that i still can post (Y)
anw im gonna let my brother think that i woke up the earliest!!! hahaha
i think he will know la
anw i think i desperately need someone to talk to if not i will go nutty and start sprouting nonsense to my brother!!

ohyaz im going out on sattttt
to watch half blood prince. super excited! :)

any-o-how, im still sitting here stucked @ FNN. mm im not stucked but im kinda running out of energy...
wdv it is, i think tmr i will look like ghost.

like the "yang ming jiu" that advertisement. the woman wearing red flagging for cab that one. HAHAHAH
somemore im kinda fair.
so yep expect me in school with dark panda eyessssss :(

you know why i dont wanna skip tmr's lesson?
cuz i figured out that:

1) tmr's day is pleasantly FINE...
2) i need to stop skipping school on TUESDAYS if not it will be veh suspicious..
3) i've missed like alot of practical lessons!! which is NOT good.
4) wednesday's the chi listening compre!! so tmr's like the last practice.
but i dont have any worries about LC cuz i so far only got like 1~2 wrong in the exercises.
anw i cant imagine how someone can only get ONE correct. amaz-ing.
i always get tired when listening to the chi passages because they talk so slow
and monotone...
5) tmr's like the LAST racial harmony day i could attend in CVSS. so must cherish! i think it will be great:) cuz alot people wearing. i think?
6) my father will kill me if i skip one more day of school
7) theres 30% chance that we will get to go to the LAB because 4f having their practical tmr, i think? so they will have to use the 2 kitchens and we will go to the LAB. yay. i really hope so. :)
all the best for them anw:)
8) i think my post is cramped up cuz i didnt press "spacebar"
9) looks like list of random stuffs but anw im veh sleepy now and the last thing i would wanna do is to lie on my soft, cold and comfy bedddddddddd..
10) i feel bad. somehow):

k bye!

awww i think blogger having maintenence(?) it looks screwed on both IE and MF.
awwwwwwwww im feeling so stresssed.
im gg mad!

Lip Products: Top 6

HAHA. she is funny:)

Secret Stash.

Hihi people.
its like 11:45pm nowwwww. im supposed to be doing my FNN coursework now!!!
but unfortunately, laziness kicked in and im like sitting here and blogSHOPPING.
yes, im kinda like looking for some dresses. hawhaw

hmmmmmmm today was alrighty
but i was realllly tired. ):
had maths ST in the morning. ooooooh its extremely hard (i mean for me la. im like the 1st in maths counting from the bottom. LOL) k im just insulting myself. wdv.
haha. then after recess was POA. not bad. i know how to do the questions!!! ^^
then was chemistry...... hmmmm not bad. i like experimental chem. i like chromatography! =D
after that was bio..... not bad. felt proud of myself cuz i did my homework :)
then was english - mr suaini never come!! i mean he didnt attend the lesson.
haha i think he got sick of talking while we're talking so he got a cheena lady to relieve.

so basically the lesson was pretty slacky
i read newspapes, sms, talk, hide eilane's stuffs and dream
hahahaha ok la. i like;)
after that went for LIT.
i like it when mrs norlinda tells us about her life:) its sooooo amazing!
after that went to eCon and had cup noodles.
funny. ys cant identify vehicles!!! HAHA :)
then after that walked home :)

slepttttt till 7plus and tv-ed used comp
and i ate the sinful food - KFC. im having a cough
yet im eating that!!! so yea. but its finger-lickin' good! (Y)
hehe. now im like using comp and im gonna start my FNN soon!
before i forget, my favourite show is airing like in 5mins time!!!
tonight, i shall sleep @ 4am or earlier if i can. cuz i need to COMPLETE the damn conclusion!!!
boo. hard work pays off! so i shall put in hard work
anw im expecting scoldings somehow! cuz i initially wanted to develop but i totally forgotten about it till ystd MIDNIGHT. if you're been following my tweets, you should have known about it! haha.

so yep bye! i know its abrupt
but no one cares right? :)
byeeeeeeee

-
its painful to meet your eyes
knowing that i couldnt say hi or smile or wave or whatever
its painful that i have to avoid your eyes
pretending like nothing had happened
maybe i needn't do all these
but i just cant.. just cant stop myself from wallowing in despair
how much i wanted the friendship to recover might not be how much you've wanted it
it really depends on you..

i have no say or whatsoever in your decisions
because since you have wrote that post
it clearly shows that you're on the verge on letting go..
idk what else i can say
but pls, take good care of yourself.....

-
it sounded like a breakup post or whatever
believe it or not, our friendship is/was as close as that.
as close as whatever you can imagine.
so dont underestimate this.

Major Crisis

And so, i have read.
my eyes welled up, my face went wet.
seriously, i didnt expect that this was really what you have felt.
call me insensitive. i really didnt expect it all.
i have already emailed you my reply.
i didnt want this friendship to end and i will not let it end.

there isnt much that i could do now except to wait for a reply
i suddenly felt that i am the only one left on earth.
i suddenly need to talk on the phone
im breaking down
things changed ever since you have started to bottle up your feelings
but anw i dont blame you for anything at all

now i can only sit and wait for your reply
and it hurts so much to see your best friend walking past you like you're invisible
it really hurt.
alot.

IMYSM.

Hello all.
oh gosh, im having a headache. its so intense that my head is splitttingggg!!! ):

but anws, i had a great and awesome day today!!:)
woke up at like 12pm and bathed...
ohyea. before that, you know what happened?
there was a chemistry mock exam today.
but i didnt go, because!
1) i set 3 alarms in the morning to wake me up. i set them @ around 4am plus so i was extremely tired and didnt notice. guess what! i forgotten that today's saturday and i only put tues-fri ( cuz got school ma! its alr preset-ed by me.)
ya. so it didnt wake me up!!!!!

2) when i woke up (@ 9am) i had blocked nose & cough (been a few days) then i was like, aiya. dont go. cuz later i spread the germs. since its in hall. lol.

now you tell me. suay anot!! i think its predestinied lor.
i believe in fate. haha. if im fated to take the chem mock, no matter what, i also will wake up one!!:) [ok i think you can call me optimistic]

HAHA. they are NOT excuses k! it really happened.
and i was extremely guilty after that. ); but theres nothing i can do! lol
-
k back to story!
so after i bathed preped and so on
left house @ 1pliuspm and wento RP.
i was like, wandering outside Mac cuz i wasnt sure if the guy was Felix
as he was back-facing the glass doooooor.
ok i think i look like an idiot la. HAHA cuz i was like walking to and fro calling him
and he didnt pick up -.-
so in order to not continue be an idiot (SS prob! sentence structure!!), i wento the bookshop upstairs and walked like a few rounds and Ranson called.

then i wento Macs and i knock knock on the table.
LOL. luckily its him. if not i will be super extremely ultra embarrassed!!! HAHAHA.
so yeah settled down and such. then i went to order food:)
i cant believe that i ate for like 2hours. cuz we were waiting for Mr. Ranson to comeeeeee.
He said he went to Jurong to send food to beggars. SO FUNNY. HA.HA.HA.
-.- lol then i finished when he finally came. and they ate. and i spaced out. HAHAHA
then after that started doing. i finished some bio papers. after that, i was drained out. LOL
i wanted to do POA but nehhhhhhh i was too lazy ;P

and they finished their work tooooo! so we started chatting.
and crapping, talking about lame jokes. haha! told them the MRT joke and they laughed like shit.
and the monks oneeeeeeee. heeeee. thanks zimin& rachel for your jokes.
hahahaha :)
then crappppped and we got sooooooo bored that we played Bingo!.
hehe. i only lost one roundddddddd =p pro right! k. kidding. hahaha
but its fun ^-^
then after they went off to somewhere else and i went home :)
i walked in the drizzle and now im feeling sick!! (i know im weak)
and i watched Harry Potter just now!:)
the credits page took like 1o mins + ! nuts!
but i liked the map. got the footsteps. so coooool.

so yep now im blogging
i need some new clothes
):
i seriously think that im going to fall asleep before my dinner reaches home!
-.-

-
i miss the 88 bus trips that i took with you.
):

Purged.

Hmm......... i was very motivated just now on studying chemistry.
hahaha but now i am hungry i decided not to... cuz if i stay up any further i'll be even hungrier.
and i can't eat any more supper/snacks! if not i'll get fatter. and rounder..
well, maybe i'll just study a teeny weeny bit. srsly i know im gonna fail.
i just knew that we had chem TODAY. like so wtffffffff.
so it kinda sucked to be absent for chem. BOOHOO T-T
wdv. the main point is, we have to report to school @ 9am
or was it 845? wdv la. but yeah. like why must have mock exam on sat!!!!
totally dumb. >:O

ohyes, i didnt went for my retail therapy today
was extremely exhausted and tiredddddd so i spent time @ my crib. :)
hmm, today's day was actually alright. rather pleasant i would say?
maths was alrighty, chem too. i luv doing chem experiments. haha
its like so cool:) hahaha. Lit was okay too. but sometimes it gets boring listening to Mrs Norlinda.
and my mind will drift away~~~ but anyway, she talked abt living life to fullest.
and i think that shes very cool because she had been to many countries!
if i have the money, i wanna go Italy and France!! and Korea and japan and Taiwan.
hahaha i think Italy is cool. i wanna go Russia (sp??) and Spain toooooooo :)
hahaha im night-dreaming. ^-^

FNN was kinda rushy rush rush. cuz suddenly 4f people came in and it got noisy.
hahahaha but its funny. cuz like theres this scent of panic-ness. (weird description i know)
hahaha but really. and we're supposed to pass up our final coursework part B on TUESDAY.
wth. im suddenly so stressssed. ): gahhhhhh
then had POA asp. happy that i finally know how to do prepayments & accruals ^0^
but after POA, my mood decelerated till no end. ))))))))))))))))))))))))):
walked extremely super slowly to the LRT station and waited for Eehon to come :)
he finally came and we bused to Tampines 1 to meet Alexy.
and bought our contacts. YAYYYY IM SO HAPPY. heehee. thx Alexy! :DDDD
then bused back to Sk. Alexy alighted somewhere in Tampines. haha. he went home :)
then we went back Sk and Eehon sent me home :) thankyou (:
haha. then homed and i was soooooo extremely tired that i fell asleeeeep.
lol.

woke up ard 9plus due my sister's screaming
wtf. she told me she needed the camera (yes the f camera again!!) during the weekends cuz she going overseas (which is malaysia -.-). then i lent my camera to second sissy today (fri)
then she came into my room screaming for the camera. i told her its with second sissy
then after she called her then she came into my room again and screamed for me to get out of my room and transfer the pictures.
wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhelll. was damn irritated. cuz i just woke up
but not naturally awaken. but was due to the screaming of my sister. how great?
pfffft and she left for her HOLIDAY and friggin' switched all the lights and tv off before she left.
what-the-fuck? i was in the kitchen pouring drinks then. tskkkkkkkk
stupid bimbo.

ahh k im going to stop writing already! i know its abrupt.
but i dont feel like writing anymore. i sound naggy!
so bye!!! :)
-

im still not okay, despite the fact that i've cried.
i h8 this. i h8 that i am so helpless.
i h8 that i cannot do anything to salvage.
it has not ended. i know. but i feel miserable.
-
i feel like confiding to the girl-whom-got-her-heels-stuck-to-the-drain-while-we-were-out-the-other-time now. i just need her so much now.
i just feel like telling her everything. everything about my life now.
about the crisis. about people i have met. about how i feel.
AH.
i just need her nowwwwwwwwwwwww T-T
-
and thx to jinsheng for the offer!
i appreciated it :)
thanks alot x10000000000

Peeka.

her face was like that because she was naughty and injured herself):
but now she's recovering!!! all thanks to me. heh.










damn, i looked fat and distorted!!! )))))):
anyway theres a fan infront of me thats why my hair gone crazy. hahahah




AMANDA. haha. this was the zoom-ed in version cuz we sat like very far away!


during FNN practical!!


haha. i looked round.

My. Mood. Is. Bad.

Wanted to blog like 1 hour ago. but the damn browser kept hanging!>:O
used IE like twice and hanged if not lagged damn badly.
used GGchrome. damn it, even worse -.-

yea, and today's not a good day.
not everything is going on well.
had 2.4km rerun in the morning during PE. damn exhausted. ))))):
after maths, was english.... then recess.
during recess, i was desperately trying to convince Kiathao to go the genting thingy
but he still refused. @#$%^&* first time i fail to change people's mind. haha.
after that was chinese.... had listening compre & we finished watching PONYO.
like finally. but the ending was lame. lol

then was POA. had testttttttt. sian.
last min revised. hope i pass! :)
then was LCE.
watched Blood Diamond in class. Mr Lee like force people watch one lor.
lol. but anw the movie was damn violent. and i got frightened once.
when the guy stole the diamond then the leader/head killed him. LOL
was told that this is a real life story.
omg, cant believe the people there are so violent and cruel. tsk.

after school went str8 home...
skipped SS. haha. but once i reached home, my mood became worse.
lolll. had my nap and woke up ard 7plus and had dinner at 8
and watched paris & milan. i cant believe there are actually people smoking in the MRT!!
like so kuazhang. but cant believe that one guy actually rebutted others when they told him not to smoke in the MRT. wtfffffff so f inconsiderate!!!
i think Singapore should just ban ciggarettes totally. it just sucks.
and now im procrastinating again! i wanted to do FNN but i got so turned off by my computer that my motivation wore offffff. ):

the talk that Mrs Tan had was motivating. i was motivated. but because some things happened.
my motivation wavered. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
k. and im supposed to do FNN but im too lazy. i shall do it tmr.
hope i can finish & not be late for POA if not Mr Lee's face gonna be blackblack. haha!

and tmr after POA gg get my contacts
after that meeting my sissy go bugis!
sat going study! yayyyyyyy im so happy now.
ok no. im kidding. lol.
k gtg sleep already. byeeeeeeeeee.
-

i did not expect the outburst from you this morning.
i was shocked. but i can understand because its your own personal problems.
its okay if you dont wanna share. its wrong for me to probe so much.
we didnt talk much at all, throughout the day. i wonder why?
maybe because i didn't make the first move? prolly.
the reply that you gave me took me offguard.
i wasn't prepared for the sudden reaction? idk how to describe.
but i can assure you that i definitely wasnt trying to instruct you.
i know you're stressed. with your work and everything. i understand.
but its like, you can share with me to release your burden and your load.
i will listen and understand.
the reason why i asked you was because i was concerned.
not concerned that i was the focus but was concerned about you.
i know whats happening to you so i want to know about your latest situation? if you put it this way.

so maybe like what "welcome" has said. i prolly stepped over the borderline of friendship?
but you know, i have been like this ever since you know me. and i dont think that being overly concern was a problem. maybe it wasnt. but now it is.
whatever it is, you just have to say.
say you dont want me to know. tell me dont ask so much.
say that you will tell me if you really want to.
but please, dont raise your voice at me. (maybe to you, you dont realise. many people are like that). i dont like people raising their voice at me. because it makes me seem like i am in the wrong. i wasnt wrong. was i? i was just being concerned.
well, the only thing i could do now is wait.
because your mood changes fast and i cannot predict what you're thinking next.
maybe you're having your pms thats why you become hot-tempered easily.
i dont know whats wrong with you.
but i definitely know that our friendship will not end, will not drift and will not be gone.

this kind of problem, we faced it many times and we always managed to overcome it.
now the decision is just up to you. i have done my best(i think?) and idk what you want.
maybe you need to think through? i know you dont need an apology cuz you always h8 me for apologizing. haha.
but i'll give you time.
we'll definitely go through this.
luvyou. xoxo.
-

sometimes, i kinda missed the times we had.
the times before we separated.
the fun times perhaps?
i missed talking to you both. i missed everything we did.
haha. maybe not alot. but it was certainly memorable i guess?
but anyway, i think my greatest regret in life was losing the two of you.
really.
-

Assure me.

HIHI.
haha. i am in an extremely good mood now, idk why.
prolly cuz i have finished something that i have wanted to do :)
newayz, i was super pissed during afternoon >:O
cuz theres this stupid girl wearing a boho outfit and acted like a wannabe.
idk why im blogging about her cuz shes just a stupid pea in my eye. (HAHA i was playing Barn Buddy just now!)
yep and guess what happened?
me, jianying(L) and wendy were outside the eCon, i was on the phone & luv was eating.
then this stupid girl came out and literally flipped her eyelids. as in like she "diao" us.
haha. funny. not hang. but diao, you know? hahaha
and we were like puzzled.
i was still on the phone then. we were in our school uniforms.
so why the fuck does she have to do that?

damn it. i swear i was soooooooo pissed after she left.
she totally did the outfit injustice and just brought shame to herself.
seriously lor. wth. i h8 wannabes and i h8 people who just SPOIL outfits.
like wtf seriously. anybody who got that kind of treatment from her will naturally have the same reaction. stupid bitch!!! >:O

there was also another reason why i was pissed.
haha. but i shan't say here. not convenient ;P

so, today was alright i guess? but i was pretty tired....
oh. the rain was damn big in the morning. -.-
and my shoes were wetttttttttt. ):
but i reached school around 7.25!! and im not late. hehe
ya. cut the post short cuz my bro is pestering me to sleep!!!
-
ok so mdm zhang didnt come
and we played heart attack & murderer in class.
it was fun. but in the heart attack game, our fingers were all aching cuz Alex kept pressing our fingers. hahahaa but nevertheless, it was fun! =D

after that was SS and Zimin & Rachel was sharing w/ me all their lame jokes.
some were really funny though. haha. :)

after that was Maths.........
then had english asp. mmmm, didnt regret going
cuz only did oral and i finished my COURAGE essay!!! i think its badly written though.
damn it. courage and bravery is SOOOOOOO similar! :(


and friday is COMINGGGGGG!! ^0^
looking forward.
k theres PE tmr and i think i have to run!!!
cuz i was absent during the 2.4km run.
k, gotta fly!

TTFN. :)

-
shut lids close
shut lips up.
why dont you spare a thought for others whenever you do such things??
you really think that you're very capable, smart, pretty & flirty huh?????
k whatever.
if you think that i am referring to you. then you ought to read my disclaimer.
hehe. put to good use!
k im gg to bed! nighto.

Review Freshlook Colorblends!!! Part 3

NICE. but her eyebags are heavy.
i prefer the brown one.

In a storm , in my best dress - fearless.

i have lots to say.
i need to pour out.
i need to confide.
i need to....
go shop
go walk
go exercise
go swim

i need money
i need friends
i need love.
i need discipline
i need to be less sleep-deprived
i need to be more focused.

how will these succeed when..
you have stumbling obstacles;
like PROCRASTINATING??
seriously. i h8 myself.
-
footnote:
dont comment so much when you yourself ain't perfect.
everyone has different needs, wants and desires
whats wrong with me listing out mine?
(:

Pauper.

today's actually alright. just that mrs lim criticized my pictures!!!!!
its like, the first time ever, someone did this to me. )))))))))):
i was like :O then she say my pictures take all crooked then cannot see the label.
i was like.............. its so obvious that its from this sample then she say its not obvious blablabla
sian.
anw the practical was okay.. no major errors.
just that if the chicken were to have seasonings, the chicken will taste very very good.
hahahaha but too bad cannot add seasonings. )))))))))):

anw i think the chicken fillet's color was realllllllly great.
heehee. looks almost edible. (: ( i mean its edible la. for like 1 sample only. HAHA)
yeah so after everything ended, teacher had briefing and bla
then off to eCon w/ clarence, dion, jocelyn, alex and yingshu.
bought siew mai (s) for snack. hahaha
yeah, home sweet home after that.

homed, rest awhile. changed and rushed out to meet sissy @ pasar malam -.-
and while waiting for LRT, my damn phone rang and it was soooo embarrassing!
lol. then in the end, the damn handphone-casings-screen-protector-seller just kinda gone MIA.
kinda pissed. somemore i was sweating like f.
nvm, somemore the guy who replaced the original guy was so f guailan. >:O
talk like some big f. >:O stupid. was super pissed after leaving. ah
then walked ard and back to compass. and suddenly sissy said she going meet YY.

lol, i was like -.- then i threatened her to pei me go buy if not i lock her out. HAHAHA
mean. i know. but she suddenly like that, tsktsk. lol.
saw crystal (: i told her my elder sissy was my younger sissy. HAHAHA cuz shes so MINI. ^0^
then after that wento KFC and bought dinner for my bro and myself. :)
home sweet home after that. damn, it was really squeezy in the LRT.
and when i wanted to get out, i said "excuse me" most of the people siam
but got this auntie wearing PURPLE just stood there like one big block of fats.
was super angry, cuz its she really like, took up alot of space and she didnt EXCUSE me........
then i just squeezed past her. damnnnn
why are LRTs so small. h8 aunties who dont understand the meaning of EXCUSE ME.
tskkkkkkkkkkkk. >:O

homed. was suddenly very very tired
and i slept...... woke up @ 8 and ate dinner! haha. KFC.
anw ytd i ate LJS for dinner right, then after that i nose bled. wth right. im so weak.
lol. and watched Red Thread. nice show! damn, adrian pang's english was superb. (Y)
then tv blabla and started using the comp at 10
i have to STOP using comp!!

i haven't do
- maths GRAPH
- eng COURAGE
- bio REVISION PAPERS
- i think still have but i forgotten what.
damnnnnnnnnnn ):
i h8 maths. i h8 maths. i h8 maths.
but im applying for accountancy.
ironic much? :)

k im going to do my stuffs and go sleep
cannot tahan!!
bye!

Beep.

Mmm, felt like i havent been blogging properly for ages.
wellll, i guess im gonna be like semi-hiatus. prolly i'll update my flickr more oftenly than my blog.
hahahaha anw follow me on twit-ter k!
http://www.twitter.com/iheartjane
or click on the "follow me on Twitter" link ^-^

its cool la, cuz i can update from my phone.
so its like anytime, anywhere. - sounds like an AD.
hahaha
hmm had FNN preparation today.
oh! and there's maths ASP today. damn
im so dead if mrs yoga finds out that FNN ended early D=
and im so nervous for my part B practical TOMORROW (i must learn to stop writing tml if not i rlly will forget how to spell T-O-M-O-R-R-O-W.)
i think it looks wrong. k wdv. :)

ya, back to topic. im so nervous!! and i havent even pack my bag yet
dont feel like. humph. actually wanted to do my compos
but i was sooooooo sick, keep ah-choo-ing. and my bro got infected cuz of me. HAHA
too bad for sharing the same rooooooom.
ya im still sick naoooooooooo. BAD. im gonna pop some pillz and sleeep
hope i wont be late tomorrow! and i gotta write a memo to remind me what to bring.
damn. h8 to have short-term memory.
yeah and time passes fast yo!
today's MONDAY.
in a BLINK of an eye, it will be FRIDAY soon.

LASTLY. i really need to go bugis/town sometime!
gotta check out some stuffs. otherwise i'll get cheated. x.x
sometimes really h8 blogshops upping their prices so MUCH.
bleh. and im kinda excited to get my LENS. ^0^
anw my rebonding sucks! its not STR8 anymore. BOOOOOOOHOOO
))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
k bye. hahahaha so random right.
im very hungry. if i dont sleep. i will eat SUPPER. and that is BAD.
cuz i had LJS just now. fattening!! and! i spill the damn box all over my skirt just now!
i was still wearing school uniform, then my bro say, "pass me a cloth to wipe"
then i say, "nah. give you. *tugging @ my uniform*"
HAHAHA. ok, its a JOKE. pun intended~
hahahahaha im a failure @ takeaways.

k, gdnight!

-
i feel so empty without you.
why?

Glitzy stars on the milky way.

i didnt finish my dinner and im velly belly hungry nowwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! ):
but gonna sleep now anyway.
i did something mean just now. but i figured that it wasnt so bad as compared to what she did to me. so i think its okay.
haha. i just felt like blogging this!
bye!

Protests.

hmm, today's oral is BAD.
okay, i just really h8 the fact that i actually stammered on my words
like wtf seriously!!!! >:O conversation topic, was quite ok. just that i didnt have like time to think.
and ideas just came bursting out. lmao.
anyway, DPA application is opennnnn. omg
am like at a lost, which courses to choose. IT or accountancy?!?!!?
anw i just realised that theres POA test tmr
and maths is like the second period of the day
can i just hope that
(1) mrs yoga is absent
(2) she forget that i have remaining homework to check on.
either one will do but i think the 1st one is hard.
anw i think facebook is cranky!
at the wrong time. fffffft.
k nvm im going to bed alrd, shant care so much!
happy there i can go str8 home after sch tmr!!
shall start studying.

I NEED TO SLIM DOWN.
like now.
bye!

You're so insignificant in my life

Hihi people! i'm still up, yeh.
didnt attend school today cuz i slept at like 4.30am in the morn
when i woke up @ 7, i really couldnt tahan
so sent an sms to my father. YES, sms.
haha funny. then i ate some panadols on an empty stomach and fell into coma

woke up ard 12plus pm and sissy prepared lunch
PORRIDGE. omg. long time since i ate that
had choco waffle first and it was damn delicious
unfortunately, i wento shit after that. stomach pain like hell >:O
then watched tv and bla. oh! and it was my turn to wash the plates today!!
after that i wento bed with a bloated stomach
on-ed my radio and yay, i luv classicals!! 92.4 ftw.
hahahaaha. luv itttt, so nice.
not because it acts as a lullaby(?) but its really soothing. and beautiful...
heard shan and rozz too. haha cool but not my cuppa tea. ^^

so anyways, i fell asleep and slept till like 8pm then i intended to go and bathe
8.45pm then i bathed, i was soooooo motivated in the bathroom (happens like all the time)
yes and i wanted to do my homework alrd!!
but sadly, i watched the last ep of the ultimatum and it was dinnertime!!

with PORRIDGE. wtf seriously. my bro said i said ok when i was asleep
so sissy cooked my share. ahhhhhhhhhh ate till damn bloated and i started to walk ard the hse disturbing my hammiesz
then ard 11 then i started using the comp and @ 12 i watched the young yang warriors.
funny title, i just translated it into eng. :)
yea was multi-tasking but realised i couldnt
because i was short sighted so i have to go near the damn tv and watch
bla, till 1am and im like stuck @ surfing net and reading people's blogs
and blogshopping - kay it was random!! i swear upon my teeny weeny pinkie (kay not that teeny but it rhymes!!)
whatever. lol. then some random person talked to me and wasted like half an hour of my time
cannot blame him la. haha kay sorry!
-.-
now im gonna do some eng compre and do some maths
hope that i can coma @ 330am
K IM GONNA SLEEP AT 330 AM
NO MATTER WHAT. eng homework is just a burden!!

I SWEAR IM GONNA FINISH MY FNN.

click to enlarge. im really really very hungry, thats why im thinking of this!!! anyway i swear im gonna finish my FNN so that i dont have any more burden. YES!! that should be the motivation. i should seriously put a wallpaper in red that says "FINISH FNN IF NOT YOU CANNOT SLEEP" then i will have the fear to complete. hehe. if i complete, i will be very satisfied with myself. anyways im pretty nervous for chi oral. =S like the first time. cuz its the one and only time you can take it. NO re-taking. whether or not my chi get A1 depends on that! 8th JULY. wish me luck kiddos. and the reason im typing in like a paragraph format because i uploaded a photo and i cannot press "enter" if i press then theres a [div][/div] thing. understand? k nvm, i doubt anyone would. haha! k gdnight. im gonna chiong~!