Imperfection

Friggin' pissed off by my brother.
some stupidity have gone over him and hes behaving like some retard
got $17 for the class photos, yet he reluctantly take the money from my father.
had to argue with him and logic things properly before his stupid brain can accept it.
being an impatient person, he naturally pissed me off, so badly. at a freakin' wrong time.
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okay, things were okay today
except that i was SUPER TIRED and i feel so sick during bio asp!
got the feeling that im going to faint anytime, and im heating up.
today's a science day for me.
bio asp, chem asp, bio extra lesson.
ytd was maths asp, maths extra lesson
both till 6.30pm!!!
there's chi oral tmr!!
okay and ive yet completed my F&N development.
k i know im very fast.
ah. homeworks are piling up,
ive made it a point not to procrastinate, yet i cant!
reached home at around 645? then blablabla
ordered Macs for dinns, cos my father was gna be late.

his treat anw, suggested by me!!! (p/s: we're not okay yet!)
ok then i watched tv till 11pm then now im reading CLEO
damn it!! i havent even done any work!
i told myself that i was supposed to complete:

ENGLISH
F&N
SS!!

and I WAS LATE FOR 6 TIMES ALREADY, IN A SEMESTER.
and MRS ANG talked to me, or rather scolded me. lolllll
so disgraceful, i mean, i felt so disgraced. LOL
so i MUST NOT BE LATE ANYMORE!!!!
ok, even to the expense of not doing my work, i shall NOT BE LATEEEEE!


and im kinda looking forward friday, saturday!!!!
because friday going out with Jianying(L) and saturday going for a movie marathon!!
with Mr Haruru. hahahaha
sunday's having tuition and watching movie also. LOL
okay so everyday's SO PACKED.....
kthxbai!




i reminiscence about the times we were together,
the happy times, the sad times, the angry times, the embarassing times.
yet we strive through it all, no matter what happened.
gossips, rumours, backstabs, none of these happened to me while you were still around.
as much as i want you back, i couldnt bear to hold you back.
i have to set you free like a bird, whos trapped in a cage, in which im a cage whos barring you from other birds' visits.
i think a lot, when im alone, when im with friends or whoever.
i think, what are you doing now? i felt so much, wanted to message you and tell you the latest gossips i found out, i wanted so much to tell you about my latest news, all about me.
i wanted to tell you how much i cherished and treasured this friendship as much as though it was a vein in my heart.
when its broken, all the blood gushes out, till no more blood, and the heart is dead.
that is how powerful that friendship was.
as much as sometimes when i disagree with what you've said, i tried my best to figure out that you're right somehow or rather.
although i hate it when you sometimes dont take my opinion for real or think that you're always right, but that is you. that is your character. i wont and cannot do anything to change it. or rather, we have to compromise, to reach to mutual agreement so that we wont break out into quarrels.

looking back at our old photos
the set of photos which we imitate other peoples' trademark pose, as well as our own's.
it was so fun back then. we were all so innocent and noobish.
lol. and i still remembered, while you still had your BANGS days.
and we often went on studying trips together, laughing like nobody's business,
taking retarded photos as if no one existed.
everytime we went, we kept seeing a certain group of people.
soon, as i had predicted. we met Daniel and he became our friend.
i still remembered, the most recent one.
was that we celebrated our first(?) christmas together.
and we met christopher, marcus they all. hahaha
so much fun. *winks

then was my birthday celebration
was touched, happy, speechless.
then was my actual day, the presents i've got was unexpected..
finally, my belated bday celebration.
the war broke out, i shouldnt have done that.
i should have just waited and not say anything
i should contain more patience in me.
i regretted, how that day ended.
how i've treated the both of you.
however these paragraphs although only contain memories of only one,
i want the both of you back, into my life.
fill it with happiness, not emptiness
fill it with joy, not sorrows.
fill it with love, not hate, dislike, detest.
xoxo

Hurry up!

Hello, okay im gonna blog fast.
cos my sis just reached home -.-
i have alot of things to do!!
yet i feel so tired
felt so totally drained out after maths remedial.
darn it. anw, joash's ITOUCH is coolios!
cos its DARN SLIM AND ALL. so nice!

ok and everyday's gonna be busy busy busy!
k bye! im gonna have my dinner & bathe and do my homework!

I HATE PEOPLE WHO DONT REPLY TO TEXTS

hello! its alrd like 1.10am! and i haven't sleep yet!
1) cos im waiting for a seller's sms reply.
2) i got nothing to do.

ok, im very very tired now
and my face is oily-ish! and i dont like the feeling at all! >:O
okay so i dint go out today because Mr Haru put me aeroplane!
last minute say cannot go, tsktsk
but he promised me a movie marathon in return!!! =D
hahahahaha
then.. simply spent my day at home!!! using the computer,
on facebook, playing rock legends & pet society!!!
addictive games. had blogshopping sessions in between!
bought smth too. LOL

hmmmm gg out to meet up tmr
and studying in the afternoon!
hope to clear up my mountainous(LOL) homework.
or piles maybe. :)

gonna post some piccas i found in my sissy's laptop!

ROFL.

Some funny vids i found randomly.




(the front part ^^)

Compassvale Military Band.

Hello people!
i was googling for Compassvale Military Band, and guess what i found!

Videos:






Websites:

http://www.compassvalesec.moe.edu.sg/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=61&Itemid=79

http://sgbandfusion.com/index.php?action=printpage;topic=2332.0



ahhh the band fiesta videos really brought back memories!!!!!
YAGI BUSHI!
OMGGG.

Disappointed.

This is gonna be a long post..
okay, so Compassvale Military Band had our SYF yesterday, 2nd April 2009.
i was confident that CVMB will sure clinch the GWH because we were so UP TO OUR STANDARDS. seriously, okay not OURS BUT MR ER'S.
morning went well, except that halfway while er's conducting, he sprained his neck.
or shoulder, and got injured. at first i thought nothing of it.
but as i think through, i figured that it must be a bad omen..

okay then after that we set off to Singapore Conference Hall.
we were so excited yet nervous.
mr er was telling us not to be nervous and enjoy the music.
we went in, eyes on us.
settled down, and began to play.
i made some mistakes, but it wasnt obvious
at part L, my saliva got stucked at the bocal
and it kept, "tock tock tock" and i lost my confidence and played softer
following on was okay..
cavetown too.. until at one part i was supposed to play Aflat i go play Bflat...

went back school.
everybody was excited about the results.
Compassvale performed well, we did not disappoint Mr Er.
then, esther on-ed loudspeaker and we waited for the results.
when the announcer announced:
Compassvale - Silver.
it was exactly the same tone and pitch like it was TWO YEARS ago.
when we got our FIRST SILVER.
the impact was huge.
waves of emotions rushed through, i thought about what Mrs Lek said TWO YEARS ago.
she said, crying is of no use. get back the gold and do Mr Er proud (smth like that )

then i decided not to cry.
i went back to my seat.
Joash alr started sniffing, then came Alexia, sniffing.
and more and more people started to cry.
i couldnt take it anymore and i let my tears flow.
i thought about the huge disappointment in everybody and most importantly,
Mr Er.

We were so confident of clinching that GOLD medal that we aimed for GWH.
in the end, we got SILVER. it was a second SILVER ALREADY.
everyone worked so damn bloody hard to get that GOLD.
AND I THINK THAT WE HAVE PLAYED WELL, ESP OVERTURE 2.
it was not like TWO YEARS ago, when there were breakdowns and such.
there WAS this year, but minor breakdowns. therefore, i dont think that its so serious,
until they can give us silver.

Im annoyed, im anguished
im UPSET im FEELING MISERABLE.
words of sadness and disappointment best suits me.
sort of cried my heart out. and after that i walked home
on the way of leaving the school, saw Yingshu, Enqi & Eunice.
thanks YS and EQ for the hugs, appreciated.
thanks to 3 of them for consoling me.
seriously when i saw Yingshu, she approached me with a hug
and i just cry. cry cry cry.
after that, bidded goodbye and i walked home.
my face was pulled into a long face..

reached home, i was in such a lousy mood till i dont bother to talk
after that, i played with my hamsters and i wento sleep
woke up have dinner watch tv and i wento sleep again
woke up this morn ard 6.30am

was uber tired and my eyes were puffy.
didnt wanto go to school, but jianying asked me to go.
so i went, in the end i was late.
then after that had lessons and so on
seeing my fellow peers feeling moody and down,
my heart weighed. theres nothing anybody can do

CVMB! WE HAVE TO MOVE ON SERIOUSLY.
TO ALL MY SEC4S AND SEC5S BAND MATES,
PLEASE, GET OVER IT. MOVE ON. WE HAVE OUR MAJOR EXAMS TO BE MORE CONCENTRATED ON!!!!

to our juniors,
PLEASE, WORK HARD AND STRIVE HARD IN BAND
I KNOW IT WILL BE TOUGH WITHOUT SENIORS IN BAND
BUT YOU HAVE TO LEARN TO ADAPT
NOTHINGS IMPOSSIBLE!
MR ER WILL COME BACK
HE WILL STILL TEACH US.

okay, i suddenly missed Mr Er so much. ))))):
i feel like apologising to him
he wanted GOLD so much, he had suffered enough.
i wanted back the GOLD too, i wanted to bring back the GLORY for our band
but sadly, we FAILED.
we failed in our mission.
thats that. we cant do anything about it
we cant change th results.
but im quite looking forward about the comments
and see what IS THE REASON THEY GAVE US A FUCKING SILVER.

OKAY, CVMB! WE'RE STILL A GOLD BAND
in every band student's & mr er's heart
we are the best and we always will be!


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i skipped chi asp and went home
cos i was really MOODLESSSSSS.
i want to go out SO BADLY.
no one was free, but im going out with HARU tmr
like finally. ahhhh
felt better after hours & hours of online shopping (:
my eyes hurt now. argh

I LOVE COMPASSVALE MILITARY BAND!
ALTHOUGH I DONT HAVE MUCH FRIENDS THERE. (:
WHAT MR ER SAID ABOUT ME IS SO TRUE.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! xoxo

Anticipate.

AHHH ok till now i havent sleep yet
cramps are killing me and my eyes are threatening to close
i was LATE for school today you know!!!
i ALMOST didnt felt like coming to school!!!!!
cos the feeling is so sian
and i feel so SCREWED.

I AM ALREADY LATE FOR 4 TIMES IN THIS SEM
AND I HAVE GIVEN 3 PARENT LETTERS IN THIS SEM ALRD!!
MEANING: I CAN ONLY PROVIDE MC(S) NEXT TIME IF I WANNA SKIP SCHOOL.
TELL ME!
screwed up right!!!

but luckily band during the afternoon sorta cheered me up (:
everything was going well and fine,
and that DAMN F# note is killing my ass off.
so sad that mr er asked me not to play the chords there ))))))):
but luckily i managed to get intune with Jingwen for Bnatural note.
Argh, the method mr sun taught me didnt work lah!!
going crazy already.
but well, the aircon was damn cooling that you felt like sleeping
but you cannot.
aw. sad case.
and mr er came damn early today.
-.- in the end made some of us warm up in the band store.

then band ended around 5.45pm
was starving like mad. reached home cooked noodles
and was hooked to the computer (sin sin sin sin)!!!!
sometimes i really hate myself for being hoooked to the computer!!
K I SWEAR TMR NOT GONNA TOUCH THE STUPID COMPUTER!!
k and im going to sleep now alr cos tmr wanna wake up early do some filing for chem file
(so hardworking eh) haha! no lah, last min work.
how i wish time can slow down. let me sleep longer.
btw,

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY!
HEEEEHEEE
ok, suddenly felt like pranking people!!!
first victim would be ..........
Miss Low Jian Ying!!!! hahahaha
she got tricked!!!
ok, gtg!!