Maybe it didnt really change at all.

this time i fell so hard
way too hard
the pain is tremendous
i felt the change.
the intensity was so great.
you were different. you've changed. perhaps to suit the mood you're in now?
i was too overwhelmed by the change that i chose to close up
to close up my heart and not let anyone in
i kept the key in the most secretive place ever.
i really cannot let myself suffer anymore hurt as it will certainly ruin my life
i put in so much effort for this yet it became like this
maybe things will change. who knows? i am not sure.
it is like the future is so unpredictable. people's moods are even worse
so hard to predict.. and when they are having bad mood
normally you will get the worst hit
when you have damaged a huge blow to someone beloved
the only way to heal the hurt is sew up the stitch with your own hands
time will heal. yes?
but time however is a limiting factor
a factor that is not infinite.
it will end someday.


some things really peeled open the bare fact
the fact that have been covered by dust, and a relationship
it was so vivid. its threatening.
i like to think out loud because i'm not afraid
not afraid of letting others know what i am feeling
i dont like concealing
concealing my feelings werent exactly my forte
i dont like to hide my feelings because if you want to have a true friendship/kinship or wdv
honesty is really the policy
no matter if it hurt me or the other party
this are all inevitable. you cannot avoid all these

if you choose to conceal and let the layer to pile on and on and on
sooner or later you will find yourself lost in the maze of concealed feelings
even though the truth might be too great, too powerful sometimes
i have to face it. face that obvious fact that things are changing, people are changing
the way people feel change
how people treat things also change

there is also no point in you sitting at one corner and emo
i dont think there's any point in doing this
i believe, everyone , in their tiny space in their heart yearned for some attention
no matter you're emo / loner / wdv, you wil yearn for attention
because of attention, some people will do things that are so. out of my imagination
and because of that the consequence was so great
dont ask me who because i am just speaking randomly.
i can refer to anyone :)

the purpose of posting out my thoughts didnt hold the malicious thought of harming people or just make them feel bad or whatever
its often a space where people read and reflect in their lives
what really went wrong or maybe they should change their attitude in their ways of changing
i also didnt want to post my thoughts and make people h8 me
when people h8 me after reading blog, it was then i realised that people actually couldnt face up to the harsh fact.
maybe you think that all those are rubbish or whatever
all these just flows out of my mind now
i didn't script this or whatever. so yepp

on a side note: my phone got a little cranky!!! it just wouldnt save my piccas and i have to bring it down to plaza singapura to repair it. awwwwwwwwww im so lazy. ):
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i really, need a confidante.