2 words.

Remember the times we sworn that we'd be sisters forever,
remember the times we'd said we will stay tgt or side-by-side with our families
or before we got married.
we had big dreams and we'd say anything to each other under the sun.

people change, things change
perceptions changed too, how you feel how i feel changes by the time flies
its hard to tell , to estimate the change
but when you really did, it was really obvious

well, im not blaming anyone or anybody
im simply stating my feelings, if you dont like it
or you detest it or whatever, you can simply dont read
i didnt state names or whatever, its really my own feelings..

when the biggest blow was over, the only feeling i've got was numbness
it numbed all the pain you've caused me, it numbed everything we had tgt
it was just like a mirror misted by the water vapour
everything was a blur.

when the vapour evaporates, whats left was a piece of dusted surface
which is akin to a glass ball
it dropped from the greatest height and shattered
after it was mended, it still had its lines and cracks
no amt of mending will help..
i am that fragile.

you maybe wouldnt even knew.
until i've said this
after you've dealt me with the biggest blow, i could almost become someone with no hard feelings
someone whom you can push me over, yet i could stand up and walk away
someone with no pride nor dignity
maybe.. thats really what happened
i have no energy over certain things
friendships are like intangible to me
its invisible by nature
because its strung by feelings, real feelings.

no matter how much you've hurt your friend
at the end of the day, you will still be friends
because you've once shared the greatest memories tgt
it was tagged along with the feelings, thats why you can never ever, severe all ties
all friendship ties with a friend.
however you'd liked it, you can never forget, your lost friend
because you once had great memories with her, you will never forget about her

its like me
sometimes i have this urge to message you abt something exciting i've found
only to realise that we're no longer friends
i can no longer tell you about my secrets about my stuffs or things i've found out
its terrible, because i used to tell you everything, from the top to the bottom of my heart
i can never hide anything from you
because you can tell.

but now, i cant tell anyone
and i feel terrible
my heart is like packed, full of sorrows full of troubles
its struggling to come out like a kept dragon
my heart is strung tight with barriers that prevented it to come out
to get released

maybe i seemed cheerful on the exterior
but i ain't,
ain't the cheerful Jane anyone used to know anymore.
i've changed, alot.
i feel.

well, if you are not even CLOSE to me in the first place
dont bother commenting.
if you think that im being drama mama here then dont read
if you have so much comments you should keep it to yourself.

really hate it when sometimes one blogpost of mine could be the talk of the town.
and im not kidding or boasting.
i know whos gossiping and all.
haha. i have 'thousand miles ears' - if that even made sense
hahaha.

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apart from that..
lemme update abt my life:)

FRIDAY .

LAST PAPER!! yayyy
but it didnt went well though, i tried hard to study the night before
but i FAILED..........
so yeah, didnt study. haha
after school, wento Compass w/ yingshu, alex and jocelyn.
had my breakfast @ KFC......
then went to SKCC and met rachel & lester.
waited for the rest to come.

had geraldine's sushi :)
its nice with the mayo that alex brought. :)
hahaha
after that wento yingshu's house to see bossy.
aww~ i want a dog too! hahaha
i love dogs who can fetch stuffs AND come back with it
hahaha.
slackslack there and changed into geraldine's clothes.

wento Hougang Plaza for pool:)
first time there & first time playing pool.
hahaha.
thanks (rachel, lester, yingshu, geraldine) for teaching me! haha
played for 2hrs and wento Hougang Mall for late lunch :)

after that, alex & kenneth came.
walk walk ard and bought a flower & card for Mr Er!:D
i went home after that:) while the rest wento tuition:)

homed ard 530pm..
changed and all and brought my hammie down to 299 bbcourt
met rachel & lester there.
slackslack and became spectators. hahaha
homed @ 9pluspm ?
bathed & slept:)
FUN DAY!<3

SATURDAY.
hmmmmm, woke up ard 11plusam
reached sch ard 12pluspm, waited for Mr Er to release them and i gave him the prezzie:)
hahah took instrument home too. goshh it was damn heavy, brought foxy home!!):
long time didnt take alr, my macho muscles sunk alr. HAHAHA
homed and wento compass with sis
walkwalkeateatseesee
i cant believe we went home only at ard 7pluspm
long day @ compass, my legs was breaking tho i was wearing FLATS.
goodness.
tv-ed and all, read my book till 4plusAM and slept;)

TODAY.
woke up @ 1pm to watch The Legend:)
back to bed @ 3pm:)
all the way till 7plus, bathed:)
tv and dinner. and now using comp
SLACKY day. planned to do my maths
but mood ruined):
kkkkkkkkkk gtg!